Where I’m At
This is a super long post so I’ve broken it up until 2 parts. Check out Part 2: Where I’m Going.
This is probably the most difficult post I’ve done to date. The posts that share knowledge, ideas and strategies are always my favourite. Being an information junky, perpetual student and kind of left-brained, if I really admit it- the softer, more personal posts are something I struggle with.
If you are one of the fabulous women on my list then you’ve witnessed my attempt at this for the past 6 months. In trying to develop a sisterhood of women who can come together, share and feel supported, I’ve been sharing details of my personal life and struggles with my tribe.
Now I’d like to bring these personal posts out to YOU- the wonderful reader and woman. Let’s get to know each other better. 🙂
Where I’m At
If you’ve been a part of my tribe in the last 6 months, you’ve known about the health struggles and passing of my beloved grandmother Stella, or Mama, as I called her affectionately. She passed away in the middle of May 2015 after losing her life to lung cancer. Mama was always the woman to push me forward whenever I had an idea, supporting me and trusting that I would succeed. She was the woman who sparked my interest in cooking, homesteading and food.
After going through her sudden sickness in January, through tests and medications and palliative care in the late winter and early spring, to losing her days after my birthday, my world has been turned upside down.
Honestly I don’t think it really hit me until this week- seven weeks after she died.
Her death was a catalyst- for me to bring my full attention to my and my family’s self-care, as well as really moving forward with gusto in my business.
The Hormone Diva
After having a mini-meltdown just two short weeks ago, I came to a realization: I need more ME time and I need more DIVA time. Up until now, I’ve been working a part-time job to supplement extra income as I build my business. I had a number in my head and kept telling myself I would quit as soon as my income reached a certain level.
Life had other plans for me. I realized that devoting my entire work-focus on my own business, and not someone else’s was what I needed to do- desired income level or not. So I QUIT my job. I was so relieved to be finally done and able to focus 100% on The Hormone Diva- my love, my baby.
All of a sudden I had extra space in my head, and extra time on the clock. My emotions took this as a good time to bubble up some more and I feel that the grieving process is really beginning.
Being a nutritionist, I’m always thinking about my own health. How can I improve it? What foods should I be eating? How can I balance my PCOS?
As you can imagine, being under immense stress had an effect on my health. My cycles have become more irregular in the past months, with shifty ovulation, spotting and shortened luteal phase. My analytical mind immediately went to food: What am I eating that’s causing this?
So I did an IgG Food Sensitivity Test. One of the perks of being a health care practitioner is that I can order these tests for myself (and clients).
My results: Dairy, Sugar Cane, Yeast, Almonds and Bananas are OUT! I was glad to see that the page wasn’t lit up with sensitivities- but I LOVE my dairy. I’ve been off these foods for 3 weeks now, and have noticed some definite differences.More on that in my Where I’m Going post.
I’ve also realized in 3 weeks sans sensitivities that they are not the total picture. My normal self-care routine needs to be AMPED UP. The grieving process must continue, and so must my love for myself.